About Nikki
i was born 1983 in hawaii
raised also in texas, florida, and kansas
my father was in the military
i have not attended art school or college
i have traveled as much as possible
all over the states
many bus and car trips behind me
germany, spain and ukraine as well
i have been teaching myself to sketch and paint
since i can remember
and in 2007
upon the discovery of my mother's old spectra polaroid camera
i started teaching… more
raised also in texas, florida, and kansas
my father was in the military
i have not attended art school or college
i have traveled as much as possible
all over the states
many bus and car trips behind me
germany, spain and ukraine as well
i have been teaching myself to sketch and paint
since i can remember
and in 2007
upon the discovery of my mother's old spectra polaroid camera
i started teaching… more
Jump to a project:
Treatments
using different chemical treatments
putting some polaroids through an induced state of deterioration
mostly self-portraits
as it was a period of such for myself
a time of falling apart
and it was needed
as it made way for many renovations
trying to share my polaroids
the way they would be seen in hand
with sunlight bouncing off of them
or through them
making the viewer evermore present
this is the hope at least
putting some polaroids through an induced state of deterioration
mostly self-portraits
as it was a period of such for myself
a time of falling apart
and it was needed
as it made way for many renovations
trying to share my polaroids
the way they would be seen in hand
with sunlight bouncing off of them
or through them
making the viewer evermore present
this is the hope at least
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desert(ed) 2self-portrait/spectra polaroid bleached
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waiting out a whiteoutstorms come and go, unless you are on jupiter/meghan/choco 80 polaroid bleached
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only while i sleepa short summer with a cello. a fling/self-portrait/spectra polaroid with pinpoint holes poked throughout and held up to the sunlight
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home renovationsbedroom walls with layers upon layers of wallpapers and paints. much work to be done /self-portrait/spectra polaroid bleached
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rusted 2self-portrait/spectra polaroid bleached
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rusted 1self-portrait/spectra polaroid bleached
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feet and sheetsmy husband and i in bed/spectra polaroid bleached
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tiny texturesself-portrait/fuji bw3000 with sunlight bouncing off of it
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desert(ed) 1self-portrait/spectra polaroid bleached
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what lies ahead...you cannot even begin to imagine/ryan/choco 80 polaroid bleached
travels
i got a passport when i was 18
but did not use it until i was 24
money certainly played a part in not getting overseas for years
all i ever daydreamed of in my adolescence
was traveling abroad
to lands where i did not speak the language
where i did not know the culture, food, and smells
and of falling in love
again and again
never imagined i would be falling in love
again and again
with the same man
but that is life
not as you imagined it
hopefully better than you could have
these days
traveling centers around just close family and friends
i travel to see them
to see life through them
create experiences together
laugh together
eat together
but did not use it until i was 24
money certainly played a part in not getting overseas for years
all i ever daydreamed of in my adolescence
was traveling abroad
to lands where i did not speak the language
where i did not know the culture, food, and smells
and of falling in love
again and again
never imagined i would be falling in love
again and again
with the same man
but that is life
not as you imagined it
hopefully better than you could have
these days
traveling centers around just close family and friends
i travel to see them
to see life through them
create experiences together
laugh together
eat together
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so damn brightit just takes time to adjust to it/arizona/self-portrait/spectra polaroid bleached
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among horsesmy mother with two horses. this is where she was always meant to be/texas/fuji bw 3000
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dying summer sunflowerstexas/choco 80 polaroid
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in the eyesthe look a dog gives when they are struggling to understand what you are saying/new jersey/600 polaroid
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but a drop of waterwas a quite terrified of my sister's white picket fenced plastic neighborhood but this little dewy plant right outside her door was very calming to my eyes/texas/600 polaroid
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3,723.3 milesa summer roadtrip with my son. here he is walking on my grandparents apple tree limbs just as i did as a child. after that summer they cut down the apple tree/rainer/texas/choco 80 polaroid
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g.7 days in may visiting a best friend. shooting with an 82 yr old large format camera of his and with instant film! a beautiful experience./gerald/germany
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by handa fence my father built/self-portrait with scout/florida/fuji bw 3000
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breakfasthard boiled egg yolks/ukraine/self-portrait/spectra polaroid
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windowukraine/self-portrait/spectra polaroid
mirrors
though i have self-timers for most of my camera's
i often find myself using a mirror to take a self-portrait
mirrors that have been in my family for generations
mirrors that have been within homes, in doors, for decades? more?
i cannot help but think of who else looked at themselves in these mirrors
crying
singing
putting on make-up
and whatever else
i often find myself using a mirror to take a self-portrait
mirrors that have been in my family for generations
mirrors that have been within homes, in doors, for decades? more?
i cannot help but think of who else looked at themselves in these mirrors
crying
singing
putting on make-up
and whatever else
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letting go 2this mirror was part of a dresser of my mom's. it was to be thrown out the next day/self-portrait/spectra polaroid
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letting go 1this mirror was part of a dresser of my mom's. it was to be thrown out the next day/self-portrait/spectra polaroid
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bellowsmy son was asking me about the bellows of the camera/self-portrait with rainer/choco 80 polaroid
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his closet doorour son's handy work on the mirror in his bedroom when he was 3 yrs old/self-portrait/spectra
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legshad to do a whole series on legs after reading a 1960s playboy article on the language of legs/self-portrait/fuji bw 3000 bleached
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a straw hatself-portrait/fuji bw 3000 bleached
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..self-portrait/669 polaroid
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.self-portrait/669 polaroid
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morningcaught a glimpse of myself in the mirror while doing yoga. i didn't recognize this woman, myself/self-portrait/fuji bw 3000
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a lessongiving my son a lesson in doing polaroid transfers. playing and teaching and creating/self-portrait with rainer/669 polaroid
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a few shots from my first year of shooting
by the end of the year my grandparents had found
an old 220 land polaroid camera in their attic
and gave it to me
this camera plus the spectra polaroid that was my mom's
are deeply loved and well used
by the end of the year my grandparents had found
an old 220 land polaroid camera in their attic
and gave it to me
this camera plus the spectra polaroid that was my mom's
are deeply loved and well used
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a boy and his motherself-portrait with rainer/spectra
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5 lbs of honeyself-portrait/600 polaroid
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reachingself-portrait/spectra
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grey grayself-portrait/600 polaroid
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morning night 2i am a morning person and my husband is a night. i asked for a little show of affection this particular morning and this is what he gave me. i was disappointed. i wanted and expected a gentle kiss on the neck or shoulder blade/self-portrait with ro/spectra/cropped
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morning night 1i am a morning person and my husband is a night. this is in the morning/self-portrait with ro/spectra
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just beforeself-portrait/669 polaroid
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peeledself-portrait/spectra polaroid peeled
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when i was blondeself-portrait/spectra
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with graceself-portrait/spectra polaroid
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the year i got a bundle of choco 80 polaroid film
it has been a wonderful film to work with
the year i found a muse in meghan
i was so nervous to meet her and photograph her
unsure of myself as a photographer
and i am a shy personality on top of it
so just the basics of meeting a new person
made me filled with nerves
all went well that first day
we had fun
we took some great shots
and we became friends
it has been a wonderful film to work with
the year i found a muse in meghan
i was so nervous to meet her and photograph her
unsure of myself as a photographer
and i am a shy personality on top of it
so just the basics of meeting a new person
made me filled with nerves
all went well that first day
we had fun
we took some great shots
and we became friends
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house sparrowmeghan/choco 80 polaroid
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duck like mouthan illustrator friend, Lok Jansen, said this upon seeing this polaroid, "hope I can say this; - you have the most beautiful eyes and supercute duck like mouth here... there you go". i love getting a compliment that is unlike anything i have ever heard and then from someone i find so talented and lovely, the best!/self-portrait/spectra polaroid
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catcher of dustjust a morning of jumping on the bed in full sunshine (rare in monterey bay, ca) and then pausing to catch the specks of dust. i love watching him do this/rainer/choco 80 polaroid
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the basicsmy husband learning to swim. first float. then swim/ro/spectra
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keep your focuson what is actually in focus/baby bamboo/choco 80 polaroid
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my aim is truetrue/self-portrait/choco 80 polaroid
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for lynn k.she sent me a lovely postcard and polaroids. i sent her some in return. our neighbors cat on my mother-in-laws guest bed. it was my little act of rebellion while living with my mother-in-law, as she hates cats/portrait of a cat with no name/spectra polaroid
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aunt anna lou'smany memories tied to this back porch swing. many/georgia/choco 80 polaroid
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not typicalsomething that had to be felt all the way/self-portrait/spectra polaroid
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meghanday one of meeting and shooting with her. a most beautiful soul/meghan/choco 80 polaroid
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i found another muse by 2010 in my friend keren
and meghan came to visit us a few times
by the time we moved to baltimore
in may 2011
and throughout this past year
i have been shooting less
and hardly sharing
i went through a period of being quite the hermit
and though i enjoy solitude
this can quickly turn to something more harmful than helpful
this isolation
self-isolation
and it did for me
and i went through a period of depression
and i know a big source of it
has to do with my hardly creating
and not sharing
i have traveled to texas to see family a few times
and to spain with a friend
i took a class in beginning ballet at peabody
and am now taking guitar lessons
and will begin my welding class at MICA this month
i am branching out
doing what i wished i had done for myself
instead of regretting
much like with participating in this artists awards
i would so regret not participating
and here i am
at the final hours
participating
sharing
and meghan came to visit us a few times
by the time we moved to baltimore
in may 2011
and throughout this past year
i have been shooting less
and hardly sharing
i went through a period of being quite the hermit
and though i enjoy solitude
this can quickly turn to something more harmful than helpful
this isolation
self-isolation
and it did for me
and i went through a period of depression
and i know a big source of it
has to do with my hardly creating
and not sharing
i have traveled to texas to see family a few times
and to spain with a friend
i took a class in beginning ballet at peabody
and am now taking guitar lessons
and will begin my welding class at MICA this month
i am branching out
doing what i wished i had done for myself
instead of regretting
much like with participating in this artists awards
i would so regret not participating
and here i am
at the final hours
participating
sharing
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purviewrainer/choco 100 polaroid
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dreadeda crystal in her hair/meghan/fuji bw 3000
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a boyrainer/600 polaroid
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kerenfuji bw 3000 negative side
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anika and rainerfuji bw 3000
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three strandsmeghan/fuji bw 3000
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just thornsa rosebush without any blooms/rainer/choco 80 polaroid
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a deer nestmeghan/spectra polaroid
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kneesself-portrait/669 polaroid
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...rainer/choco 80 polaroid