COMPLETED PROJECT

“Wildly eclectic, yet consistently absorbing.” ... Baltimore City Paper

Mobtown Moon studio CD (released May 2013) is a new interpretation of Pink Floyd's The Dark Side of the Moon album, co-produced by me and ellen cherry with the participation of 40 outstanding Baltimore-based musicians in rock, jazz, classical, hip-hop and other styles of music.

Our genre-defying version of this classic album highlights the lyrical and melodic beauty of the original, by taking the songs out of their stadium-rock context and reconsidering them from a grown-up, singer-focused perspective. Baltimore CityPaper called it "wildly eclectic yet consistently absorbing," while both CityPaper and Baltimore Magazine awarded it their respective "Best of Baltimore" honors. The CD has received coverage in many music blogs and we’ve been interviewed by several Internet and terrestrial radio stations around the nation. So far, we have been overwhelmed and grateful for the positive response to our venture.

We're especially proud that we were able to create a beautiful, unique, meaningful music product showcasing the tremendous talents of our friends and colleagues here in Charm City. Already, this project has spawned all sorts of new partnerships and creative ideas.

ORIGIN

I conceived the project in 2009 while listening to the original Floyd recording, which remains very moving and relevant four decades after its release. 2009 was a dark time in the country: we were reeling from the aftershocks of a global market meltdown and the beginning of an endless recession; we were still at war, still paranoid, still so at odds with each other politically, still in denial about things like growing income inequality and potentially catastrophic global climate change.

Personally, I was feeling the weight of unhappy current events, and also suffering my own private confusions. Listening at this time to Dark Side was a source of comfort and connection. It reminded me that every era of human history has been dark, has been filled with war and want, one way or another.

MUSICAL MISSION

As a jazz person, my inclination was to take this beautiful, sometimes sad, sometimes angry music and respond to it with meaning, in the same way that master jazz composers responded to Tin Pan Alley favorites or great European classical composers responded to the folk songs of their childhood: by revisiting, reinterpreting, and reinventing.

What I also wanted to do was avoid the traditional “tribute” album that simply recreates the original songs in the same form but with different players. There are already way too many Pink Floyd cover bands in existence and I have no interest in that kind of shallow mimicry.

I had a demonstrated knack for making interesting arrangements, but this kind of project was significantly more ambitious and potentially tricky. After all, many millions of people love the original album, which is still a perennial bestseller. To "mess" with these beloved songs was to take some amount of personal and professional risk, for sure--especially because it represented a fairly great leap compared with my earlier work.

COLLABORATIVE EFFORT

In 2010 I spoke about the project with my friend, award-winning singer-songwriter ellen cherry, who immediately loved the idea and met it with a vision of her own: to make a true Baltimore collaboration that demonstrated the depth and breadth of musical talent we have in this town. We created a partnership to make this dual vision happen, and then set to work: making two demo song recordings, fundraising through individual donors and grantmakers, partnering with local nonprofit collaborators (especially the Hearing and Speech Agency and MammoJam), developing a production and promotional timeline (we were determined to release the record in spring 2013, close to the 40th anniversary of the original recording’s release), recruiting and scheduling many busy musicians (which occasionally felt like herding cats), and doing all the executive work required to put together such a massive collaboration.

As the chief arranger, I was directly responsible for the arrangement/instrumentation/sonic details of 10 of our 12 tracks, and indirectly for 2 more done in collaboration with the instrumentalists who played on them. (ellen took over the arranging for one track entirely, and she is also fully responsible for art-directing our beautiful album cover and for our entire project “look.”)

MUSICIANS ON THE ALBUM

Andrew Grimm (banjo)
Ben Frock (trumpet)
Brian Gundersdorf (vocals)
Brian Simms (piano, organ, accordion, vocals)
Bryan Young (bassoon)
Christian Stengle (drums)
Craig Alston (saxophone)
Cris Jacobs (vocals, guitar)
Dave Hadley (pedal steel)
David Ross (spoken word)
ellen cherry (vocals, cello, synths)
Eric Kennedy (drums)
Femi the DriFish (spoken word)
Frank Russo (drums)
Jake Leckie (bass)
Jeff Reed (bass)
Jen Smith (cello)
John Thomakos (drums)
Kate Zahradnik (viola)
Katie Graybeal (vocals)
Lea Gilmore (vocals)
Matt Everhart (bass)
Mike Gambone (drums)
Nick Currie (violin)
OrchKids choir (10 students with director Dion Cunningham)
Patrick Klink (vocals)
Russsell Kirk (saxophone)
Sandy Asirvatham (vocals, piano, synth keyboards)
Tim Anderson (cello)
Todd Marcus (clarinet)
Scott Smith (guitars, percussion, recording engineer)
Vincent Stringer (vocals)
Warren Boes (guitar)

CD RELEASE PARTY

We were thrilled to present our premiere performance of MOBTOWN MOON at the Kraushaar Auditorium in front of more than 800 fans. We had an incredible cast--not everyone from the album, but close. Thirty of Baltimore's finest musicians in rock, jazz, classical, hip-hop, gospel, bluegrass, and opera/choral music were crowded on that stage together, making music and listening to each other as the audience of 700+ watched in wonderment. By the time the Baltimore Choral Arts Society came on for the last two songs, there were 50 of us on that stage. The communal feeling of the event was palpable. People cried at some of their favorite old Pink Floyd songs, reinterpreted here and presented by some of their favorite local artists. It was a thrilling and moving evening for all of us.

ellen has been in many big shows, but this was a personal milestone for her in terms of the size, ambition, and authority she had over the performance details. I handled pre-show stuff like press and finances. By the time we started actually playing music, most of our hardest work was well behind us, and while we had some musical duties, we also had the opportunity to relax a bit and enjoy our incredible musical friends doing their thing.

I would have to rank 9/28/13 as one of the best days of my life, along with marrying my husband and adopting our son.

Getting to sing my version of "The Great Gig In the Sky" was also simply a 30-year dream-come-true.

But really the most satisfying thing was this: After the show, so many of our stellar musicians--Jen and Scott Smith of Naked Blue, Jonathan Gilmore, Brian Simms, Warren Boes, Andrew Grimm and Dave Hadley of June Star, Dave and Femi of the 5th L, Jake Leckie--so many of these fine and highly experienced performers said to us:

"That was one of the best shows I've ever been in, in my life."

AND:

"When can we do it again?"

That was the REAL dream come true: the joy and respect of peers.

Mobtown Moon studio CD (released May 2013) is a new interpretation of Pink Floyd's The Dark Side of the Moon album, co-produced by me and ellen cherry with the participation of 40 outstanding Baltimore-based musicians in rock, jazz, classical, hip-hop and other styles of music.

Our genre-defying version of this classic album highlights the lyrical and melodic beauty of the original, by taking the songs out of their stadium-rock context and reconsidering them from a grown-up, singer-focused perspective. Baltimore CityPaper called it "wildly eclectic yet consistently absorbing," while both CityPaper and Baltimore Magazine awarded it their respective "Best of Baltimore" honors. The CD has received coverage in many music blogs and we’ve been interviewed by several Internet and terrestrial radio stations around the nation. So far, we have been overwhelmed and grateful for the positive response to our venture.

We're especially proud that we were able to create a beautiful, unique, meaningful music product that stands out in today's overcrowded marketplace--while showcasing the tremendous talents of our friends and colleagues here in Charm City. Already, this project has spawned all sorts of new partnerships and creative ideas. Watch out, Baltimore--the Mobtown Mooners have plenty more in store for you.

ORIGIN

I conceived the project in 2009 while listening to the original Floyd recording, which remains very moving and relevant four decades after its release. 2009 was a dark time in the country: we were reeling from the aftershocks of a global market meltdown and the beginning of an endless recession; we were still at war, still paranoid, still so at odds with each other politically, still in denial about things like growing income inequality and potentially catastrophic global climate change.

Personally, I was feeling the weight of unhappy current events, and also suffering my own private confusions, as the work I used to do to make a living (freelance journalism) disappeared almost overnight, as my second career in music seemed destined to falter, and as my overall purpose in life seemed to shrink.

Listening at this time to Dark Side was a source of comfort and connection. It reminded me that every era of human history has been dark, has been filled with war and want, one way or another. (Oddly enough, this kind of profound pessimism helps keep me from growing too depressed over any particular complications of the current day....)

MUSICAL MISSION

As a jazz person, my inclination was to take this beautiful, sometimes sad, sometimes angry music and respond to it with meaning, in the same way that master jazz composers responded to Tin Pan Alley favorites or great European classical composers responded to the folk songs of their childhood: by revisiting, reinterpreting, and reinventing.

What I also wanted to do was avoid the traditional “tribute” album that simply recreates the original songs in the same form but with different players. There are already way too many Pink Floyd cover bands in existence and I have no interest in that kind of shallow mimicry.

I already had a demonstrated knack for making interesting arrangements (such as those on my debut CD, Memoir (2007), but this kind of project was significantly more ambitious and potentially tricky. After all, many millions of people love the original album, which is still a perennial bestseller. To "mess" with these beloved songs was to take some amount of personal and professional risk, for sure--especially because it represented a fairly great leap compared with my earlier work.

COLLABORATIVE EFFORT

In 2010 I spoke about the project with my friend, award-winning singer-songwriter ellen cherry, who immediately loved the idea and met it with a vision of her own: to make a true Baltimore collaboration that demonstrated the depth and breadth of musical talent we have in this town. We created a partnership to make this dual vision happen, and then set to work: making two demo song recordings, fundraising through individual donors and grantmakers, partnering with local nonprofit collaborators (especially the Hearing and Speech Agency and MammoJam), developing a production and promotional timeline (we were determined to release the record in spring 2013, close to the 40th anniversary of the original recording’s release), recruiting and scheduling many busy musicians (which occasionally felt like herding cats), and doing all the executive work required to put together such a massive collaboration.

As chief arranger, I was directly responsible for the arrangement/instrumentation/sonic details of 10 of our 12 tracks, and indirectly for 2 more done in collaboration with the instrumentalists who played on them. (ellen took over the arranging for one track entirely, and she is also fully responsible for art-directing our beautiful album cover and for our entire project “look.” She was also our live show producer, and I'll cover that in more detail in my second Mobtown Moon project space below.)

PERSONAL IMPACT

At times during the past 3 years, I felt I was earning a master’s degree in music production--and I was thrilled to finally regain my sense of purpose. It was difficult to find myself becoming so single-minded about one project: my other goals, such as doing a final draft of the memoir I’d written years earlier, or producing a CD of my recent original songs, went entirely by the wayside, and even my health and family life took a bit of a hit (all recoverable, thankfully).

But Mobtown Moon was deeply engrossing and satisfying in a way that no other work of mine has been. The best thing was to hear the enthusiasm of our participating musicians, who loved the idea and gave so much time and talent to rehearsals and recording sessions.

To be perfectly frank: in terms of public performance and studio time, I am the least experienced of any of the musicians on this recording, by a long shot, with the possible exception of the OrchKids. (Actually, those 9- and 10-year-old children do so much public performing, they’ve probably outstripped me by now.)

But what I lack in experience, I apparently make up for in conceptualization, organization, and multitasking abilities. Indeed, the project has helped me define a role for myself outside of the traditional pathways to musical artistic “success.” Given my late start in music and my commitment to being a present and available parent to my young son, I may never get a chance to tour the country or perform for thousands of strangers or be the opening act for a major regional artist, and that’s OK. I’ve now got sure knowledge of what I am: a person who can come up with a somewhat crazy and rather ambitious idea and figure out how to get it done. I hope to carry the massive confidence-boost I've received from Mobtown Moon with me throughout my life.

That said, my vocals on Great Gig In The Sky and Breathe are probably the finest recordings I’ve done (many thanks go to Ruth Hulett, my vocal coach, and Scott Smith, our Mobtown Moon recording engineer). My piano playing on several of the tracks didn’t turn out too shabby, either.

All in all, I’m deeply proud of this baby, and eternally grateful for all the many people--starting with ellen!--who helped birth it.

MUSICIANS ON THE ALBUM

Andrew Grimm (banjo)
Ben Frock (trumpet)
Brian Gundersdorf (vocals)
Brian Simms (piano, organ, accordion, vocals)
Bryan Young (bassoon)
Christian Stengle (drums)
Craig Alston (saxophone)
Cris Jacobs (vocals, guitar)
Dave Hadley (pedal steel)
David Ross (spoken word)
ellen cherry (vocals, cello, synths)
Eric Kennedy (drums)
Femi the DriFish (spoken word)
Frank Russo (drums)
Jake Leckie (bass)
Jeff Reed (bass)
Jen Smith (cello)
John Thomakos (drums)
Kate Zahradnik (viola)
Katie Graybeal (vocals)
Lea Gilmore (vocals)
Matt Everhart (bass)
Mike Gambone (drums)
Nick Currie (violin)
OrchKids choir (10 students with director Dion Cunningham)
Patrick Klink (vocals)
Russsell Kirk (saxophone)
Sandy Asirvatham (vocals, piano, synth keyboards)
Tim Anderson (cello)
Todd Marcus (clarinet)
Scott Smith (guitars, percussion, recording engineer)
Vincent Stringer (vocals)
Warren Boes (guitar)

COMPLETED PROJECT, IN SEARCH OF PUBLICATION: Manuscript complete, after over 10 years and probably seven full rewrites. I am currently making some additional cuts for narrative pacing, and am seeking an agent. Among the chapters excerpted here, some tell stories related to various songs posted under my music projects.

The child of financially successful but damaged (and damaging) parents, I tried to heal childhood wounds, forge a stable identity, and become a happier, kinder mother than my own--all through music. PLAY IT BY EAR: An American Anthem, is the story my alternately joyous and painful quest, sometimes successful, sometimes laden with emotional traps. The book's voice is of a mature woman listening back on several decades years of her life to hear its themes & variations, the underlying rhythms that have driven her.

PLAY IT BY EAR is also a timely story about race and citizenship. Born here in 1965—same year that the USA stopped deliberately blocking non-white immigrants—I was the arts-obsessed daughter of Indian doctors. Unhappily married, steeped in their own bad families-of-origin, my mother and father were often verbally abusive and emotionally irresponsible. My mother grew up penniless, my father grew up rich, but from both I got the poisonous message that a child’s only real worth is measured in dollars earned and class status attained. 

Fired up on radio hits, rock anthems, and Broadway showstoppers, I wanted no part of this perverse value system. I was an American girl: brash, loud, opinionated. I’d become a singer, actor, writer, star. Auteur, even. My relatives belittled me because I didn’t conform to Indian good-girlhood or the extended family’s fundamentalist Christianity. I also refused to go to medical school. Why be rich-and-miserable like Mom and Dad? But friends, teachers, other Americans understood. It was my citizen’s birthright to do what I loved (and eventually some money would follow….right?)

I lived this credo in my head but didn’t get very far in the world. I was hampered by pain, rage, and the paradoxical help/hindrance of upper-middle-class privilege. Successful as a journalist, I tried writing novels but hit emotional and technical roadblocks. During a terrible infertility struggle, I went into near-suicidal crisis, almost upending my marriage and abandoning the entire idea of motherhood (something I'd been ambivalent about anyway). I desperately feared getting lost in the same household misery I'd known in my youth. 

What saved me was a late-blooming, serious return to music. In my mid-30s, with a certain amount of chutzpah, I willed myself to become a professional pianist and singer. My depression abated; I regained youthful confidence, found marital balance, and became a much better mother than my own. My newfound obsession with improvisational jazz—where listening and empathy are foundational skills—plus the instant bond with my adopted infant son, together unearthed a capacity for unconditional love (as well as a surprising new knack for writing original songs).

There were ironies, though. Yearning for the spotlight, was I just reinforcing my parents’ self-absorption and neediness? Turning my passion into a career, had I merely found another way to equate personal value with dollars earned (CDs sold, gigs booked, MySpace fans added…)? 

As it turned out, this reduction of self-worth to net worth was no mere immigrant mindset but a deeply, darkly American one: an ascendant force that had perverted our sense of commonwealth, damaged our self-image as a nation of immigrants, and landed us a financial con artist as president. It was the culture in which I too--despite my surface rebellion--had been helplessly steeped since girlhood. 

PLAY IT BY EAR is thus both a deeply personal story and one that's been shaped by the same large cultural, economic, and historical forces that have left so many Americans bewildered and destabilized. I think many readers--artists or not--will relate to its ups and downs.

IN PROGRESS. Most demos done. I'm still writing/arranging a few more songs. Estimated studio production, fall 2019. 

INNOCENT MONSTER 
All honest creators look back on old work and see flaws.  Sometimes there's an embarrassment or even grief when dwelling on the fact that with a little more time, effort, skill, development, etc. you might have done better work. So next time you aim higher. The problem is how to get from the finished here to the dreamed-of there.

Most of these songs were written in a prolific flurry ten years ago or more, shortly after I released my debut disc, MEMOIR. I knew immediately that these were stronger compositions, with better hooks, more visual narratives, and a cohesive thematic vibe holding them together. (I suppose you could call that vibe..."If Carole King were a world-historical pessimist"....?)

My piano skills had improved quickly, but my voice....oh, that voice...I knew it was not sounding as good as it should, or could become. There were problems with intonation, a lack of resonance in places, and a kind of underlying ill-confidence that might make some listeners uncomfortable even if they can't pinpoint why.

Mostly, I had just thrown my fledgling effort out there into the world without much caution--a perfectly fine approach for a debut CD of the very first songs I'd ever written. I hesitated a long time before making my next move (and even conceived the massive Pink Floyd collaboration, MOBTOWN MOON, as a sneaky way of stalling my own individual progress, I suspect...). But now I was ready to achieve some new self-awareness and maturity as an artist.

As luck would have it, in 2018 I began working with vocal coach Pete Strobl, a fantastic musician who had recently moved to Baltimore County after decades in the LA rock scene. Pete has a deep background as a trained opera tenor, a longtime bassist and musical director for various touring rock bands, a recording studio manager, and a producer. But his true calling is as a mentor and coach: teaching musicians, including ones already working professionally, how to sing in a no-bullshit, scientifically grounded manner, how to create the most beautiful and authentic sounds they can.

Within a few weeks of our first lessons in February, Pete had retrained my breathing mechanics, helped me shed bad habits, strengthened my range, and uncovered better, more beautiful and powerful sounds. A few more months went by and my voice was cleaner, purer, and more "me" than it had been since grade school. The difference between my speaking voice and my singing voice almost disappeared. 

Pete has recently agreed to help me produce my next album within a year or so. The seven tracks in this playlist--old songs that have been much improved by the work we've done together so far--will form the core of the new project, along with new material I'm working on now. 

Along with the current demos I've posted ten-year-old live video versions of the songs "The Neighbors" and "Petting Zoo," performed at Jazzway 6004 with the stellar band of Frank Russo, Amy Shook, and Chris Kennedy. These were well-received in the moment but even then I knew I had better inside me, if only I could figure out how to access it. If you contrast these videos with the new demos in the playlist, I think you'll hear the stark difference right away. Less force, less pushing, less strain, less trying....more breathing and singing, breathing and singing, breathing and singing. It's that simple, or should be.

"Sheath" is one of the only short stories I've ever completed (I'm built for long work!). It was published in the Berkeley Fiction Review in 2000. The other pieces are more along the lines of personal essays, originally published under the column banner "Underwhelmed" at Baltimore CityPaper. In some ways, all this early work together can be taken as precursors to/practice for my finished memoir, PLAY IT BY EAR.

For a little more than five years, I wrote a biweekly column in CityPaper called UNDERWHELMED. It was an incredible opportunity to write about whatever I wanted: personal anecdotes, political opinions, or any combination thereof. I looked upon each entry as a short creative essay, and because it was the first time in my life I was writing "as myself" (rather than as a journalistic pen-for-hire), I really came into a strong sense of my voice in the process. Often I wrote about my late-blooming vocation as a performing jazz musician. Here are some of my favorite pieces from those years.

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On May 1, 2008 at Jazzway 6004, one of the hippest and most inviting venues in town. (www.jazzway6004.org), my quartet and I live-recorded the ten new songs I'd written since the release of MEMOIR (2007). Here are some videos from that date.

Also below are the lyrics. For me, the words of the song simply must come first. Sometimes it's just a phrase or a couplet that randomly arrives in my imagination...and then takes anywhere from a few hours to a few months for me to develop into an entire story/song. But once I have a sense of at least those first few words and concepts, I start to get a feeling for the rhythm, tempo, and harmonic "attitude," if you will, of the entire piece. It's a thrilling process, very much driven by my intuition.

I was a member of KREation, a loose and ever-shifting collective of musicians gathered and inspired by bandleader/composer/saxophonist Kevin Robinson, a native of Baltimore who has now moved to California. I played keyboard with him live dozens of  times in Baltimore, DC, and New York, and hope to get a chance to join him out West for a few hits, one of these years.

Kevin is a brilliant thinker on musical and creative topics, and just a really beautiful, intuitive composer and improviser. He inspires everyone he works with. Back in 2009, Kevin and I joined guitarist/percussionist Chris Taylor (also Baltimore native) in the recording studio of Maryland Institute College of Art. Composer/musical innovator Erik Spangler (Boom Bap Society) was our recording and mixing engineer.

Some small portion of our session was based on written-down melodic and harmonic material from Kevin, which we rehearsed briefly before recording. The vast majority of our sounds, however, were improvised spontaneously and collectively.

Kevin lives his life and pursues his music with an attitude of "Holy YES" to everything. When preparing us for gigs, he has said things like, "Okay, I have written this melody and it starts in G, but you can play it in whatever key you feel like, or with different rhythms, or just play whatever you want." Sometimes we'll be up on the bandstand at An die Musik in front of fifty listeners, and Kevin will surprise me with an announcement: "And now our pianist, Sandy, will introduce our next piece, which I'm calling Conversation With The Trees." Up until that very moment, I would not have expected to be playing an introduction--nor would I have ever heard that tune title before, because Kevin just made it up five minutes earlier.

The results of such wild experiments are free-form but also surprisingly "organized" on a deep level. That's what happens when you have sensitive musicians--the kind who listen harder than they play--all doing their best to work together.

What you do in such situations is use the vibe of the room, the suggestiveness of the song title, and your own momentary inspirations to create a new spontaneous composition on the keyboard--while trying not to worry about the fifty people listening to you. Truth be told, worry is not the primary emotion that wells up for me in these situations--instead, it's a kind of unexpected bravado. The very fact that there are listeners focused on what you're doing enables you to think more clearly and carefully as you build up brand-new melodies and harmonies, move by move, across the piano keys.

There is a profoundly social aspect to this kind of playing, too. Often times, I've met and shaken hands with a musician for the very first time right on the bandstand before we start, and within half an hour of close listening and responding, it feels as if we've been playing together for years. Once, at a KREation gig in a Harlem club called The Shrine, I found myself sitting at an out-of-tune, beat-up Fender Rhodes "suitcase" piano, with the drummer Shareef Taher positioned behind my back. We'd barely had time to say hello before hustling up to the stage. Even without making eye contact, we quickly established a simpatico rhythmic concept between the piano and the drums, one that made the whole evening a profound and forever memorable pleasure. It's these moments of deep connection and group creativity for which we improvising musicians live.

At Germano's Cabaret on several dates in spring 2013, my quartet played my originals as well as some fun arrangements of everything from Johnny Cash to Herbie Hancock to Radiohead. It was a pleasure getting back to my improvisational roots with such incredible musicians as Ben Frock (here on guitar as well as trumpet), Shareef Taher (a Peabody-trained drummer now working with some of the top bandleaders in NY, DC, and Baltimore), and Jake Leckie (a fabulous bassist who recently left a hole in many local/regional bands when he moved to San Francisco). This project posting is a bit of a nostalgic indulgence for me here.

This show was the last concert I did involving any "covers" (songs written by others). In 2018 I came to the conclusion that, while other people's music has been really important to my development as a pianist, singer, composer/arranger, and bandleader, the only songs that ultimately matter to me are my own. It's a frightening thing to admit to yourself--it makes your task as a "working musician" much much harder. Harder to sell records, harder to book rooms, harder to entice listeners. But this is the critical transformation I'm undergoing at the moment--from "working musician" to artist in full--and the only reason I feel justified in asking for grant and fan support in the coming months and years.